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Friday, September 30, 2005
MLC

Im bored & i was forced by 2 kids 2 stay back with them..HAIZ....
Actually 2dae go home @ 3pm coz got LSM but Mr Lim is sick..He contracted diarrhoe..
I want 2 rest & l8r want 2 go 2 CC 2 check my friendster.
im BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED!!!!!
L8r..got ANUGERAH..muz watch!!My "baby" is inside hahahahahahaah..
i juz hv nothing 2 type down..
p.s:I met him juz now..He ignore me!!arrrrgh!!
btw..dis guy bside me is quite kiut sey..he got nice eyes...sports mgmt guy..
naz kau kepoh!!!!dis gerl bside me is so irritating tok "cock" oni

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Mom's Suprise Party

Well..yesterdae we celebrated MOM's Bdae..it did not went as we planned..
hahaha..quite funny actually..My siblings and i were waiting 4 her 2 emerged from the kitchen..15mins long the candle burning & the cake melting..
so we decided 2 juz present the cake 2 her..she was expressionless..
Thats MY MOM
When she happy she did not smile OR when shes sad she did not cry..
So we did not noe hows she feeling..suprised or watever..
We her children shared $4 each 2 buy the cake..vanilla flavoured with choco glazed & strawberry&peach toppings..

But it was a memorable episod 4 us..U noe giving a happy bdae suprise 4 her..
I juz wanna wish her long-live..stay youthful..&happy..

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Thursday, September 29, 2005
HaPpY BiRthDaE 2 euuuuuu!!!!

Happy BirthDae 2 U!
hAPPY bIRTHdAE 2 u!
Happy BirthdAE 2 Mother,Mak,Mummy!!!
Happy BirThdae 2 U!
For my Dear Mom Sariah..
May u Live life with love & care ..
Long years of age..
Be happy ALWAYS..
MOM!I LOVE YOU!!

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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
3-in-1

yesterdae..I had a very fun dae..I met my new friend(shes my campmate)We had dinner at Mcdonalds..And we talked "cock" hahhahha..Shes a funny gerl..She always laugh at me..she said dat im 2 kiut 2 be true..hahahaha..watever!She helped me 4get my distressed 4 a moment..Hmm..Anywae do u noe dat she got a lot of peminat from every school..Her phone kept beeping msgs..
Well..then we went 2 the library 2 check friendster..My fwen Ween gave me testimonial..Thank U!
Btw!I add Fauzie(The guy from ANUGERAH..his kiut & his gf is quite pretty..Lucky her..Boyfriend is a future singer..Better take care of him coz aniting could happen..
Karan called me..hahahahah its funny his voice very the american slang..He got MC 4 2months..but he going soon on OCT11..We had a very slow talk..No sensual..Plz lah!Anywae he becoming more masculine..Wow!hahahhah

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Monday, September 26, 2005
Mondae blues..

What a MONDAE!
I'm lost of words..I juz cant describe my feeligs now..
Im totally fucking angry mad sad disappointed..blalalalalallala

f********b******J******ASS******

asckscksdskcmlasdkaskcfhivjwsfjsovjslfsofsvkof..

y my friends are turning 2 a foes?

Sometimes i juz wonder did i do anything wrong..OR hurtful 2 thier feelings...!!!

Wat i noe is dat they r the 1 who always make me lonely..

I noe im not lyke them..

LOUD..
OUT-SPOKEN..
THRASHY..

I'm more reserved..soft-spoken..i don lyke HUHUHHAHAHAHAHAH..

So i will juz walk alone lyke nobody bznes..

They practically ignore me..They prefer sitting 2gether..& gossip 2gether..

FUCK!!SIA THOSE JERKS!

even now they prefer calling themselfes a foursome..

Haiz..do i make the wrong choice?

im not complaining but all the evidence is infront of me..

they prefer being 2gether -(minus)..Me

i think their friendship will be perfect if i do not interfere..

God..give me strength..show me where this friendship is heading 2..

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Sunday, September 25, 2005
Gd nite..

im going off now..tml i will not log in my com..So..here i am juz wanna say gd nite 2 my loves one..2 my friends,2 my colleagues,2 stranger i help,2 anyone who noes me..
Gd nite sleep tite..don't let the bed bug bites..

A new day ahead is waiting for us 2 venture..View it straight&far..
If life is threatening keep in your heart that someone or somewhere is watching over you..

May Allah bless you..

Nite..

Jannah ♥ 11:40 AM link to post 0 comments

Wow!!Wat a dae..

Im soooo happy!!!I met SYAzween..My long lost secondary school friends..At 1st thot she was arrogant&proud but after knowing her she was 1 gd friend who i can share my pains&joys with..
I still remember our days in bus 21..where we went sight-seeing guys around us..& She will always "cooked" 4 me her "favourite" dishes:fried lizard..(yucks!!)..
Hahahaha..how i misz the daes..I was truly suprised wen is saw her..i was @ my counter when she walked past me,Im afraid i got the wrong person..But she recognised me,She was shopping wif her mom&sis..We giggle all along..We had a long talk..i even left my counter 2 have some reminicse with her..It was painful 2 see her go..But friends come & go..No matter what..They will Still be in ur heart..

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Saturday, September 24, 2005
3 things happened in 1..

in the late morn:
We had Ofa "lesson" while waiting 4 the fire-drill..YES!a fire-drill @ 11am..We were roasted pigs..ermm..make it chickens..hahaha..Aniwae Me,amelin,april &diana cramped into ! fiqah's umbrella..how pathetic..
Wat made me wonder is that..particularly all the schools,administration,cleaners,store-vendors&teachers able 2 squeeze in 2 the field..I thot it was impossinle..hahahahah..
But they proofed me wrong..

In the early afternoon..
Well..Felvira juz came back 2 school after massive eyeSore..It was hilarious hahahahha(Sorry gerl..)
Then..@ the end of the dae..all the 7 of us when 2 the toilet..
where Amlein&Diana practically jumped onto Fiqah's cubicle..hahaha..it really scared her..
Then..I sneaked in so dat they wont noe where i am ALAS April was doing the rabbit ears while Amelin was getting ready 2 climb on 2 the door..I grabbed her & she was screaming!!hahahahah..serve her rite..scare me some more..

wat make me ick..I found out dat the bridge leader are planning on doing the performance..I was quite agitated sia..They nvr tell me aniting & i keep asking ppl bout it..This Ite is sure unorganized..
*I msg him..hahahhaha..it was not HI/HELLO type oookeey..
It was mostly asking 4 information but i was bruised coz he end the msg..(he juz send me 2 msg..)I noe i couldnt put my hope so high coz this is a friendship..But i felt dat after wat happen..Im afraid 2 make fwen wif him..

Hmm..gd nite*sleep tite&Hold on 2 ur bolster 2nite..
Tml Im working..Haiz..hope tml sales is GOOD can score 500++..

Jannah ♥ 11:43 AM link to post 0 comments

I juz wanna say gd nite!! :)

me:Hey,Juz wanna say Gd Nite! :)
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I risked my dignity 2 msg him..My Fingers were trembling..& i juz key in the sentence..I quickly SILENT it in order not 2 torture myself...

Then,I went 2 the toilet 2 brush my teeth & Private Business...Hehhehekz..
But My mind was going crazy..

Now was the anticipated part..I was praying inside my heart..Then I saw:
I Message Received..
Opening Message..
His NAme!!!
I was delighted..
He remember me..He doesnt ask me who i am..YOOOhooo!!!
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Him:Haha..OK Take Care..Gd Nite!;)
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He gave me a *wink*..

I quickly gave my bezfwen a call..I was giggling lyke a little gerl..
I really depend on her..2 reply dat msg..But actually I should not coz he nvr reply me back..But my bezfwen said dat it was the last msg 4 dat dae,u dont expect him 2 say much..I was quite paranoid bout it..But she calmed me down..

I donnoe who else should i turned 2 if i hv dis type of problem..She stayed by my hp side till 11.45pm..

I woke up EARLY 2dae..@ 5.45am..Do u noe dat for the last 3 daes..I had difficulty 2 woke up..?
I woke up feeling happy & fresh..(mind eu..I did not dream bout him Okay..)
Rather than last tyme..Grouchy&Unfriendly..hehehheheh..
So..I guess He did play a part..Hmm..I miss him..(am i being 2 much?)
Im juz afraid dat he wont make fwens wif me..(i hope not)

Jannah ♥ 5:05 AM link to post 0 comments

Yesterdae i talk 2 my bezfwen..

wow!yesterdae i had an amazing talk wif my bezfwen ASHA..Its been nearly 2 weeks since we talk..I MISS HER terribly..We had a 2 hours conversation.. Now..shes tinking of working..she already had an offer from Airport:Customer SVC..She usually nag @ me 4 werking coz i wont had any social life BUT i got finance prob so i help 2 lessen the burden..I try 2 be independent..
NOW SHE UNDERSTAND..GOOD!..hehehehehz..

I oso tell her bout him..She Kept pestering me 2 msg him..But it is oredi 11pm sia..She forced me 2 give his no. I noe that she meant well but Im afraid dat she will frankly tell him..WHere will i put my face if i met him??She told me Now OR Nvr..If I want 2 make fwens i hv 2 make the 1st move..But im afraid dat hen will reject me if i msg him..She told me 2 be strong,I hv 2 risk it..OR not i will miss the chance 4ever..

I still remember the tyme when i had a crush with dis guy..I nvr tell him @ all.. It went on 4 nearly 2 years..& of coz he walked away wif another gerl..
I juz don wanna dis scenario 2 continue..

So..with encouragement from ASHA..i do it..

2 be CONt..

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Friday, September 23, 2005
Now in Library..

Hmm..I got out early fom class 2dae..So i decided 2 kill tyme by going 2 the school lib..
Met Nick & Jiafu..They hv CCA @ 5pm..(dragon boat)..
Haiz..My com @ home..Busted!..always difficult 2 access..
So its much better 2 go 2 lib as it is FOC..
At home sure will be dead bored..No one 2 tok 2 to..
Ermm..Maybe i should call my BzFwen ASHA..we hvnt keep contact nearly 2 weeks..
Where has she gone 2??I miss Ma Fwen ALot..

Yep..maybe I should call her...

Jannah ♥ 7:20 AM link to post 0 comments

Too fAst

I was walking down the aisle making sure dat i dont look grouchy..& also 2 get ready myself wen i sees him..Alas he was not dere..
SUDDENLY..
There he was sitting wif his group of fwens juz as i walking behind them..I saw as he turn slightly around..But it was only a glance..Haiz..
Juz a blink & he vanish..
I relly regret not looking @ him properly..I juz hope dat tml will meet him again..Insyallah..

Jannah ♥ 6:40 AM link to post 0 comments

Wednesday, September 21, 2005
A mesmerizing sight

hmm..It is such a beautiful nite..2 have a walk with your love one @ the white sandy beach..
BUT here I am all alone @ home doing nothing..
How I wish 2 breath in the salty air with my special one..
Anywae..I saw him juz now..I was estactic...4 several daes I've been waiting to catch a glimpse of him..AND there he was sitting..it was mesmerizing as i walked past him and our eyes met..My heart skip a beat & my leg turn jelly as he SAID hello..
Is this wat u call love OR Infatuation??
I juz hope dat it will happen again tommorrow..and the next..&next..
But sadly..He was already attach :(..(ermm..maybe coz dat wat he told us*)
If he is NOT??haiz..no comment :)

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